Hello blog world. It has been a while since I have blogged and I really do not know why I have taken a break from it. Life has been super busy and there is so much to catch up on that I do not know where to even start, so I have just not started at all. I have been taking a little bit more time for myself lately. I have been making my health a top priority and that has been a big time commitment.
Six weeks ago I started a new journey….
I have been a sugar addict for most of my life. My biggest vice is chocolate, I absolutely love it! I would replace entire meals with a handful of M&M’s or a couple of Hershey Kisses. During the day when I was working I found it much easier and quicker to just eat a handful of M&M’s than it was to make a healthy snack for myself. For as long as I can remember chocolate has been a part of my daily life. I would eat it several times a day and crave it constantly, especially after a meal or when I felt stressed. I have been wanting to kick this unhealthy addiction for a long time but I could never find the motivation to do it. A few months ago I was on a walk with my sister and I was telling her how I just do not get why I cannot find the determination within myself to give it up. I am very driven person and typically once I set my mind to something I take it all the way. The problem, I could not get my mind set. My sister suggested that I read a book by Jackie Warner called “This is Why You’re Fat”. I never read books like this nor do I attempt fad diets but I figured that I would give it a try.
After reading Jackie Warner’s book I finally had the inspiration and determination that I needed to start cutting refined sugar out of my diet. I remember the momenet that her book impacted me. I was reading the chapter about sugars realtion to cancer and that was when it hit home. I looked up at my husband with tears in my eyes and told him that I had to give it up. He laughed at me, yes he laughed at me for crying over my pre-morning of my sugar kick. But to me this was so very real and emotional. I had come to depend on chocolate for many things. Happiness, temporary energy lifts, meal replacements, stress relief, etc.
For the past 6 weeks I have cut about 90% of refined sugars out of my diet. I would love to tell you how easy this has been but quiet frankly it has been one of the most challenging things that I have ever tried to do. I am still going through withdrawal symptoms such as headaches, mood swings and feeling light headed and I have even cried a few times, okay a lot. I was told that this should get easier for me around week 6 but that has not happened. If anything it is getting harder. I seem to crave chocolate more now than I did during the first few weeks. Sitting here writing about my experience is very difficult for me. I have a headache and feel frustrated just thinking about it.
My goal is to make a healthy lifestyle change not only for me but for my entire family. We have gone to eating all organic fruits and vegetables and we are exercising regularly. I have not been to Starbucks in 6 weeks and I used to go daily. I have not had a glass of wine or any alcohol for that matter in about 8 weeks. I gave up wine because of the sugar and this has been by far the easiest thing for me to part with. People have been asking me if I feel better and the honest answer is NO!
I do not have a good answer for why I do not feel better, I am preplexed about this? I have made many healthy changes. I am eating clean and I have given up 90% of refined sugar, wine, I am eating more fruits and vegetables, eggs and other vegetarian proteins. I am working out 6 times per week and I have even lost some weight, YEAH!!
So why? Why do I feel like crap if I am making all of these great changes…. Here is my two cents on that. I never saw myself as someone who had an addiction before, well before now. My body has become so addicticated to sugar that I am still in the withdrawal stage. I never realized how toxic and addicting sugar is. For now I am taking this one day at a time but my goal is to succeed at a major lifestyle change. Writing on my blog is just one more way for me to hold myself accountable.
If you would like to try and kick your sugar habit you may want to read 141 Reasons Sugar Ruins Your Health By Nancy Appleton PhD & G.N. Jacobs.
AGUA ~ It’s good for you!